Unable to move

I feel I am unable to move, forwards or backwards. Maybe its not knowing where to move to. I feel so stuck yet so free yet again so trapped. I am trapped in this life of work and home while removed and freed from the trappings of right and wrong of religion yet I stil feel free and trapped in both. I don't know how to balance it anymore, especially with my family and situation inbetween everything and themselves being part of the equation and at the same time the problem.