Christmas Around....Loneliness still in part

Its less then 2 weeks to Christmas, yet I feel no joy or excitment for it....Nothing excites me to feel again for the joy and happiness of this season. Although the season should mean more then just a festival, but a event of the Cat Calendar. I feel nothing more then that anymore.

The excitment of long ago, to long and wait for this day has died. More of a dread then a long, as it brings seasons of unhappiness and old memories. Bringing all that has settled as much as possible to stir onces again in me and people around.

This stiring I long to leave from...