Not giving up but giving in...

After 7 weeks of my now life style....after 7 weeks of continuing on this regime, this way I have forced myself to life....I realised that cause of "free will no choice".....I can never win this 'war'....a 'war' I have made-found-walked in-discovered myself inside since I could remember. Alot have I thot about this week about the past 7 weeks and the past years and years of my life, so far.....I realised that there is no choice in free will....but the choice is also what we want it to be which is free to be willed....so.....within this I knew I can never be who I want to be....the most is be the person I have fallen into.......so it can be said I am not giving up.....I am just giving in....giving in not to the 'right' but giving in to this cannot be changed......

Choosing to fail or choosing to be myself?.....